Changes

Soon we’ll be making some changes with the old blog here. For several reasons, I feel it’s time to make this a “private party,” so please let me know your email address (if you think I don’t already have it) if you’d like to continue to read about our comings and goings and other escapades.

I know it’s been a while since I’ve posted (moving kind of threw me off!), but we’re still here, we are well and happy, and I am eager to get caught up.

But for now, let me leave you with this quote (the boys are hollering and dinner’s not quite done - a lethal combination, so this is going to be short). It defines my life perfectly right now:

“The real voyage of discovery consists not in seeking new landscapes,
but in having new eyes.”
- Marcel Proust

I’m trying to have new eyes as I adjust to life in Utah, as I find the beauty here, as I make my way in a place that is all at once familiar and yet so different from the place I grew up. One thing has remained constant - the mountains are as spectacular as ever!

The lovely view from our backyard. My Virginia friends understand especially well how thrilling it is for me to be able to say “our backyard.” It’s not a patch of grass anymore, friends. We have a real backyard!

So Long

It’s very late at night and the house is still. My family is asleep on the floor and on air mattresses, (all the beds are tucked safely away in the moving van) but I don’t want to join them just yet.

It’s my last night in my home, and I am enjoying the quiet. Enjoying just being here. Because I tend to project human feelings on inanimate objects (especially the houses I’ve lived in), I think my little home is feeling sad and lonely right now. Tomorrow, she’ll be left empty and waiting for someone to come along and snatch her up. Whoever it is will be lucky, because this is a good home, and I think a little bit of the happiness we’ve felt here will linger.

After saying our family prayer tonight, I noticed tears running down Hayden’s cheeks, then Curtis joined in and then Owen (I was already crying) and soon we were all sobbing. I wanted to take away the hurt of leaving somehow, but I couldn’t. These tears just mean we love Virginia. Oh, how we love Virginia.

For so many reasons, we will miss it here …

So long windy, tree-lined country roads
So long University of Virginia campus (I am so proud to have a connection to this school)
So long UVa hospital and friends dressed in scrubs
So long family up the street (please move near us again)
And dear friends in the ‘Hood
and backyard BBQ’s and playdates and walks and Sunday dinners and holiday celebrations and a million other things
So long driving a long time to get most places, but not really minding because it’s just so beautiful
So long dear ward family
and primary children whom I adore
and good cub scout leaders
and faithful visiting teachers
So long Baker-Butler, the best school in all the land
And friends sent to us from God who is so aware and who always puts the best people in our path
So long Hollymead ball fields
and YMCA sports
and JAG soccer - my boys learned so much and I loved cheering them on
So long girls nights at Panera
So long tips to DC, to the monuments, to the temple, to historical sites that thrill me
So long living on the East Coast (my heart is so drawn to this part of the country)
So long dear Blue Jay Way
and kind neighbors
So long UVA football games (we’ll always cheer for the Cavaliers)
So long Spring Hill park, home of the hoops and the slides and happy afternoons with friends
So long Barracks Road
and Earlysville Road
and Ivy Road
and Proffit Road - a few of my favorites
So long stately Virginia homes
And quaint country cottages
and big, green yards
So long downtown mall
and Ragged Mountain
and the 4-miler and 10-miler and other good road races (this town can run!)
So long Forest Lakes
So long Chris Greene Lake
and the Merkley pool
and hot, humid summers
and crisp autumn air and trees blazing with color (oh the trees!)
and bloom-filled springtime
and just enough snow in the winter
So long “snow days” with no school
So long Golden Lady and Big Red (favorite trees in the ‘hood)
So long “my tree”
So long fireflies
So long Blue Ridge Mountains
and Shenandoah National Park
So long Cater Mountain and pumpkin patches and apple picking
So long Monticello
and Mount Vernon
and American history at my feet
So long living in Jefferson’s Virginia

So long. It’s been so good.

We’ll be back. A lot. Virginia will always be our home.

New adventures await!

So long …

Boxes ….

They’re everywhere. Everywhere boxes. Everywhere I look.

They are relentless, the boxes.

But there is also a sense of accomplishment as I fill them with the things of our life here. For me, packing equals remembering, which means I am not the fastest of packers. I’m not the type to toss things out without consideration. I’m not one who can pack a bookshelf without browsing a bit. So it’s taking a while. I know it’s just stuff, but the memories are thick around here right now, seeping into the boxes, settling among our things.

Along with all our stuff, I wish I could pack some people, too.

My thoughtful, beautiful, wonderful friends had a little going away party for me. It was such a fun night - exactly what I was needing.

Dinner at Sakura. We’ve been talking about doing this for about two years now! Glad it finally happened. Also glad for the Polaroid picture and the free cheesecake!

Night out with my primary gals. We had a little Fat and Sassy garlic bread and the best pizza in town (well, actually a little bit out of town). Great food, even better company.

My final days here haven’t just been filled with boxes, and I am grateful for wonderful friends and my sweet sister-in-law who have been looking out for me, keeping me company, making sure that the boxes are bearable.

I love these people.

Really do wish I could box them up …

Fun Run

With the blistering temperatures lately, my outdoor running hasn’t exactly been as the title of this post implies. However, last weekend, we were blessed with some cool breezes and taking a break from packing, I had a great 8 miles along my favorite running path.

I have trained for two marathons and several other races by running the trails in Forest Lakes. I have a bunch of paths mapped out and have run anywhere from 3 miles to 20 in that beautiful neighborhood.

I remember my first 20 mile run there - I kept passing the same group of kids in various places along my route. As I neared the end, one of the kids shouted, “Just STOP RUNNING!” I almost laughed out loud, because at that point, that’s pretty much how I was feeling!

I have such tender feelings for Forest Lakes. The trails there feel like old friends. I got a bit choked up when I finished last Saturday because it’s my last long run there (at least for a while) and I’ve put in a lot of “blood, sweat, and tears” on those trails, proved to myself that I don’t quit, and that maybe I’m stronger than I think I am. And besides, the trees are breathtaking - all year round, but especially in the spring and fall. It’s one of the places I will miss most of all.

Thank you, Forest Lakes.

A few pictures from my favorite race last fall … looking forward to doing this one again!

Lately, I’ve been enjoying running along to “Viva la Vida” by Coldplay, “Freckles” by Natasha Bedingfield, and “Defying Gravity” from the “Wicked” Soundtrack. Near the top of each of my runs, there’s ALWAYS “One Shining Moment” from the NCAA March Madness Tournament. For me, mixing a little March Madness into daily life is really a good thing!

Our Turn

After several celebrations for other graduating medical residents, this time it was finally our turn.

Our turn!

(Not sure why the rest of the post looks like a link. I'm definitely no technical wizard and I haven't figure out how to fix it yet!)

One of my favorite moments of the evening was when Tyler was described as "always being the funniest man in the room, and he's never drunk!"

His sense of humor has definitely helped him (and me!) along this journey. It was fun to see that this same quality that I love so much about Tyler is valued also by his colleagues. Several times Tyler would come home from work and tell me how much he enjoys the people he works with at UVA. I'm grateful he got to rub shoulders with such good people.

When Tyler stood to give his speech, I was expecting something really light-hearted. Instead, he was reflective and serious. I sat listening, tears streaming down my face, so proud of this hard-working husband of mine. I wanted to run up to the podium and throw my arms around him and tell him, "you did it, you did it! I love you! I'm so proud of you!"

I blew him a kiss instead.

But Tyler, you did it! You did it! We did it!

Eight years ...

Remember finally deciding this was our path?
Studying for the MCat?
All the applications? All the fees?
Interviews?
The acceptance letter from Tulane (I brought it to you at work at BYU and we hollered out the car window?)
The other acceptances?
The "Decision"?
Tulane orientation ... Is he coming? Isn't he? Is he?!
White coat ceremony ..."compassion"?
"Studying" at the church with your cronies?
The ups and downs of test taking?
Congratulatory notes on the door after each test?
Charity Hospital ... ketchup bottle! ... and a million other stories?
Externship in Virginia, summer 2003?
Knowing this was where we wanted to be?
Residency applications? Fees!
Interviews and room service after?
Rank list?
Match day? Virginia!
Langiappe year in Louisiana?
Graduation, marching with umbrellas to the beat of a Jazz Band?
No one does it like Tulane ... No one.
Moving up to a long white coat?
Getting settled at UVA?
Kind, caring folks who helped you learn the ropes?
Outstanding colleagues who took excellent care of Owen (peanut fiasco)?
And excellent care of me?
The yearly schedule and other chiefly duties?
Big Blue and a whole lot of studying?
End of the year DVD?

And on and on and on ...

I'm glad we chose this path.

I'm glad for where we've been.

I'm glad for those who helped us along the way (and there are many).

Thank you, UVA, for giving us our turn.

Boys of Summer

With their proud mama!

Northside Cal Ripken League, we will miss you!

“Owen’s Not Listening To You”

That’s what Owen’s little buddy told me yesterday after she watched him spin through the house like a hurricane, wreaking havoc all over the place.

Nope, he’s not listening. Just doing his Owen thing.

Me at Target today: “Please don’t throw trash on the ground.”

Owen: “I want to see it fly.”

Trash “flies” to the ground.

This is minor. But definitley a mirror of the way his mind works.

This same mind also “catches” beavers and frogs and monsters in the forest (and brings them to me in sand buckets), and at home, devises all sorts of checkpoints throughout the house that we must pass through in order to enter other rooms.

Curtis: “Owen, let me go into the living room.”

Owen: “No. Give me three tickets first.”

Curtis rolls his eyes and dutifully gives Owen “five” three times and only then is he allowed to pass into the next room.

Don’t even think about not giving tickets. Owen is quite serious about the tickets.

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Trying to figure out this spirited boy.

One thing’s for sure - he’s got my heart.

The Last Day and The First of Many

This week my Curtis and Hayden finished school. First and third graders no more. That alone was enough to send this sentimental soul reeling, but the fact that we are leaving our school about did me in!

Maybe it’s the teacher in me, or maybe it’s that it tugs at my heart to see my boys getting older, or maybe I just love the coming together of teachers and children, the comraderie of classroom - probably all of the above - but the end of the school year is such a hodgepodge of emotions. I was glad to participate in the end of the year festivities with my boys, but there was a pit in my stomache, large enough for a whole big bunch of heartache to creep in. I just hate to see it come to an end. I pasted a smile on my face and kept telling myself not to cry. But oops, I did cry. And then I couldn’t make myself stop, and well, it was all rather pitiful.

You see, I LOVE the school my boys attend. Simply put, it is a joyful place. My children were loved there, well-taught there, safe there. They were engulfed right from the start by great kids and teachers and the friendliest office staff imaginable. Because of all this, those good people have endeared themselves to me. You love my boys, I love you back.

And now I am feeling sad that they have to start over. That would have been so hard for me at their age. Of course they’ll be o.k. Of course they’ll make new friends. Of course we will be fond of their new school. But am in the thick of good-byes here, and this one - the first of many to come this month - is particularly painful.

Good buddies …

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Curtis reading his poetic masterpiece entitled “The Earth” at the end-of-the-year author celebration.

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Not only does Curtis write poetry,but he also writes books! Love the dedication.

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Excellent teachers …

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Hayden’s teacher gave him the soccer ball he helped “destroy” on the playground with his pals. She had his friends sign it, and it is now a new favorite possesion.

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The bus heading up our street after dropping my boys off for the last time. Yes, this also made me cry. Good grief. I was a mess that day. I told you I was pitiful!

Please, let us move on to something more fun. Actually, we’ve been having quite a bit of fun, mixed in with all the moving madness.

We hit the Great Wolf Lodge in Williamsburg and had the best time. Owen is still praying for us “to go back to Great Wolf Lodge Hotel and go swimming.” It was so fun to watch my boys splashing in the water, being so happy. Owen proudly wore his “gobbles” (goggles) the whole time and was quite pleased with his appearance. We ate a lot, laughed even more, and just enjoyed being together. I really treasure these times.

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Curtis was so excited to try body surfing. I was impressed that he wanted to do this, since it was something mostly the older crowd was doing.

Sadly, there was the small problem of a swimsuit malfunction. I assured Curtis that no one saw *anything* but he was not convinced. Seriously, no one saw anything. Not even his mother who stood at the edge of the pool, watching his every move.

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Notice Owen’s fingers …
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He’s doing it again. Why?! I catch him “plugging his nose” way too often!

The day after we returned from The Great Wolf Lodge, my crew ran in the Discovery Dash track meet.

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Owen was glad that this year, he was finally old enough to race. He took second place! Tyler had to prod him to start after they said “Go!” It took him a few seconds to realize what was going on, then he really took off.

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Speedy Curtis! He ran a half mile in 3:39, tying for 4th place. There was a tie for third place, too - 3:38! I love to watch Curtis run. He gait is springy, his face like stone. He is so determined!

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Sadly, no picture of Hayden running. He ran the mile race in 6:50 (!) and took third place. The boy sure can run, and I loved talking strategy with him the night before the race. He had his “game plan” all figured out!

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Before the big race, we always take our boys to the high school track to practice. They love racing against Tyler and me, and it will only be a matter of time until they beat us soundly. We also carried on our tradition of a spaghetti dinner the night before the race.

I’m looking forward to many more races to come with my dashers.

A few nights ago, Hayden earned his Bear award for Cub Scouts. We had our June pack meeting at the home of a family in our ward. They have a river in their front yard (oh, I LOVE their yard. A river runs throgh it, there’s a huge rock to climb, a swimming hole, a bridge, and plenty of good, solid Virginia trees that bloom in the spring and blaze in the fall), so it was the perfect place to do the river regatta boat race. Too bad a thunderstorm came tumbling in and cancelled most of the races. Still, we got a few in and Hayden’s boat, “the Big Cheese” and Curtis and Owen’s boat, “The Jolly Roger” had good voyages. It was such a fun night - rain-soaked friends, crowded together, glad for this summer night.

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Don’t get me started on how much I am going to miss my ward. Don’t even get me started.

Full Circle

The other day I was talking to a woman on the phone who asked where I was from. I told her where I live and she said, “Oh, you’re there in God’s country.”

And I couldn’t agree more.

In fact, my voice caught in my throat when I told her that’s exactly how I feel.

Because we are moving this summer, and it is so hard to leave my Virginia.

Tyler got a job in Utah, and it’s a wonderful job - the very job he was hoping for. The right job for him. The Lord opened so many doors for us, and it all came together in such a way that I cannot doubt His hand in it.

We are not sure yet where we will settle - we will rent until we find “the place.” And I am determined to find “the place” because place is so very important to me, which leads me back to why it’s tugging at my heart to leave here. Actually, “tugging” isn’t enough. It’s more like yanking, like when Owen grabs my arm, wanting me to go somewhere, and I want to stay put.

Living here has literally been a dream come true. Tyler and I chose The University of Virginia as our “dream spot” for residency even before we started medical school. I’m not exactly sure what drew us here in the first place, but we both knew that we wanted to be in Virginia.

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Us on Match Day, right after we got the news that we were going to be Virginia bound. I carried this t-shirt is my purse until we got the good news, then I whipped it out and flashed it to everyone! We couldn’t have been more thrilled.

These three years have flown by, and really, it’s just not been enough time. But then again, I suppose I will never get my fill because I love it here so much.

There will be lots of return trips to visit. Virginia will always be home.

This move feels like we’re coming full circle. We left Utah eight years ago. It was just Tyler, me, a 19-month old Hayden, and a regular sized Penske moving truck. Now, it’s the five of us, with Lousiana and Virginia in our veins, and the biggest Penske you can get.

Back to Utah.
Back to the mountains.
Back to our families (our main reason for returning).
Back to where we started.

There’s a lot of good in going back, and I am grateful for the chance.

What a ride it’s been! With all the looking forward that is a part of medical school and residency, I find that now, as we are about to move on, what I feel most like doing is looking back. Looking back on where we’ve been, and the people we’ve met along the way, and the places we’ve loved.

Oh, it’s been so good.

There are many unknowns as we set out on this new phase of life. A friend of mine gave me this quote that is perfect for right now:

“Have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. Don’t search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer.”
- Rainer Maria Rilke, German poet

This next step is a leap of faith. With Tyler and my boys at my side, I’ll be ready.

Here’s to new adventures!

Mama Rama … and 12 Years

It’s a week of celebrations!

Mother’s Day was delightful. Tyler sees to it that I get a break from my everyday duties, and that the day is restful and relaxing. Thank you, Tyler. He serves up lots of good food , and makes sure I get my homemade cards from him and the boys. The cards are a big deal to me. I always tell the boys (Tyler included) that it’s all I want for Mother’s Day (besides no wrestling and brother brawls): their drawings, their words. I’ve saved them all. My treasures.

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Tyler continued to spoil me for Mother’s Day and got me a Garmin Forerunner (in a nutshell: nifty watch-like device that tells you how fast and far you are running). We got a great deal at REI online, and I can’t wait for it to arrive (just a few days to go). When he told me about his gift, I squealed. Mulitple times. There was some clapping and fist pumping and feet stomping, too. I’m pretty thrilled about it.

I also got to fill in as the primary chorister on Mother’s Day. Leading the music in sacrament meeting, as well as in primary, was such a treat. The calling that terrified me at the start, has since become my favorite. I make sure the current chorister knows that I am always very willing to fill in!

I am blessed to have a mother-in-law I adore, and a mom who is nothing short of remarkable. Both these women really know how to be a mother. They did it so well “back in the day” with Tyler and with me, and now, today as grandmothers, they delight my boys with their stories, their cookies, their packages, their visits, their phone calls … I revere both of these wonderful women, and hope I can follow in their footsteps.

And now, at the end of the week, there’s another celebration. Twelve years ago yesterday, I married my Tyler in the Salt Lake Temple. I talked to him on the phone a few minutes yesterday morning, and we both reminisced about when he came to pick me up to take me to the temple on the day we got married. I remember riding in the car with him and being so completely happy and content. So at peace. There was never a doubt. Oh, we’ve had such fun. And it’s only gotten better over time. Here’s to you, Tyler. Here’s to us.

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